Man, what is going on here :P So many tortured artists !
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I've quit loads of times before, and when I do I get out more, meet mates, exercise etc. But like an alcoholic I get sucked back in by the 'just a little' idea and the vicious circle continues.
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I've had the opposite experience from you, Infinity+1. Music is something I have fought tooth and nail to stay in. In the beginning when I had no money, classical training or source of advice, I used tracking programs and deleted the sequencer contents of other people's songs so I could write my own tune with their samples.
Later, during the years of the band I worked so many shitty jobs, just trying to feed myself and help pay for the next tour. I never found it difficult to sit down and start writing, it came very naturally to me. I swiftly learned to embrace the raw, badly produced feel, and didn't worry too much about perfecting the production. To reinforce this I even wrote songs and intentionally made them sound awful. Harsh, abrasive, non-musical music. Gradually I learned what compressors did, and why EQ is handy, and picked up tips from various different places until eventually getting a reasonable sound was more like a part of the actual programming.
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It keeps me up all night, fools me by making me think I'll enjoy it and be good at it. I get depressed because I can't even write a simple arpeggio over two chords. My drums sound thin and crap.
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Infinity+1, if I were you I would set myself a challenge to write a song with only 3 different synth patches, a kick, snare, and hat, and actually focus on paying zero attention to the production quality, and complete the entire song in less than an hour. Just GET IT DOWN, get it out there.
If you keep doing this, sooner or later you'll hit upon a song that you feel like developing a bit more.
I also think you sound like you could use a holiday :>
-Annikk